Films

FOUR PLAY - BLUE, TABLE, WATER, CELLO

The first of what will be a series of films, the idea of which sprung from my tumblr blog. To collaborate with my followers I asked them to send in four suggestions; a colour, an object, a piece of furniture and a soundtrack; to use as inspiration to explore explicit sexual imagery and expression on film. Please feel free to send me in your own suggestions via my contact page.

A tribute to Clayton Cubitt’s Hysterical Literature but with an added twist!

An exploration of sexual intimacy and music performance using Erik Satie’s Gnosiennes piano pieces 1-4 and taking inspiration from his eccentric and poetic musical instruction.

Stravinsky’s Firebird as sexual expression. A documentation of a live performance. Performed at Festival 23, The Cockpit Theatre in London, and at The Secret Garden Party. Pictures below by Thomas Hensher from the performance at The Cockpit Theatre.

Silent Silver Kingdom was born from a collaborative magickal act that happened inside The Bank of England in January 2026. Poet and artist Thomas Sharp gathered together 50 magick practitioners and artists to intentionally work with a sigil created especially for the happening, towards which all of our communal energy was focussed on propagating money towards peace and art. It was an extremely powerful event.

This film was created as a document of my own personal ritual towards that event. The evening was inspired by the fact that Kenneth Graeme, who wrote Wind in the Willows, worked for most of his life at the BoE which was always a point of contention in his life. He wanted to be a writer first and foremost but had to work at the bank to fund that. There is also a weathervane on the top of the BoE that was originally used in a practical way to inform the bankers when the ships would be coming in, which enabled them to know when to fill the bank with money. This weathervane was also used as the imagery for the event as a symbol for a change in direction of where money propagates, and it also of course fits perfectly with the wind element of Graeme’s famous stories. We particular focussed on Chapter 7 known as “The Piper at The Gates of Dawn”. It is an extravagantly rich, vivid, almost psychedelic chapter that is even sometimes omitted altogether from the book.

I responded to the imagery of the weathervane which to me seemed like a magick wand, and being a sex magician, wanted to charge a real life version of it to then bring to the event as a talisman. I made it a month beforehand on the waxing crescent with the intention of performing the sex magick with it on the full moon before the event. I created money art on it depicting the moon phases using the holograms from real £10 notes. I had been listening to chapter 7 every Friday by candlelight to immerse myself in its imagery, and from that atmosphere decided I wanted to be in its seductive world somehow for the full moon ritual. The chapter describes a moonlit boat trip down the river to find the little otter who had gone missing. Mole and Rat eventually find him at the feet of Pan whose music can be eerily heard amongst sounds of nature throughout their adventure. This gave me the idea of performing the ritual in a boat floating down the river! Knowing this to be ambitious I had no idea how I was going to make it happen but then the most amazing synchronicity occured just when I had almost given up hope! Whilst looking up some places to stay over the new year with friends I came across a cabin to rent. When I read the blurb it stated that Kenneth Graeme used to stay at the house and it is what inspired him to write Wind in the Willows!!

Of course then I HAD to make it happen! It all fell beautifully into place. I managed to find a boat and my friends helped me film it. I decided it was a bit too dangerous to do it in the boat but I did it in the woods right next to the river. The moon was absolutely stunning and it was a perfectly clear night and I’d like to think that Pan as well as Kenneth were giving me a helping hand and looking on in approval :)

The character I play in the film is a woman, also called Sarah, who is said to haunt the Bank of England to this day, and was known as the Black Nun. Her brother who worked there had died over some issue with money and she was so distraught that she used to turn up to the bank dressed in black asking “Have you seen my brother?” I am trying to avenge her spirit in my ritual as well as reflecting on the intention for the sigil magick.

As well as the live flute played in accompaniment to my full moon ritual, the other sounds are created from all the words I picked out from the chapter that I found erotic.